Note To Self...

Dear 18 Year Old Me:

I know that you think you know what you want in life, but I can assure you that you don't... Not really anyway. Many people will come and go throughout your life, but don't forget to remember who has been there for you no matter what.

18 Year Old Me, don't be so trusting because you will only end up hurting yourself. You are going to encounter people who claim to care about you, but they really don't. You are also going to meet people who mean so much to you that they might as well be family. When people earn your trust, cherish their friendship with everything you have. I know that you will already do that, but you can't appreciate loved ones too much.

Don't forget that it doesn't matter what people think. You care too much about making other people happy over yourself. Sometimes you need to be selfish (and yes, I know I will be rolling my eyes at myself because I don't think I should). Don't jeopardize your values, beliefs, and happiness for others - if you do, you will only be miserable.

18 Year Old Me, before you travel literally half way across the world for something you think you want, please consider what you will be giving up. Think it over long and hard, because honestly right now I am wondering what the Hell I was thinking.

And finally, never stop working toward bettering yourself for you, not anyone else. I hope we find happiness and peace wherever our life may take us.

Thoughtfully,

23 Year Old Me

Screw Valentines Day!

It's almost that time of year again, Valentines day, the day which is dedicated to making those with significant others feel special, and those without out one painfully aware how completely alone they really are. If you are going to be alone this Valentines day, perhaps you will find yourself asking questions such as this: Am I really that unattractive? Does my personality suck? Does everyone really dislike me? Is it even possible for me to be loved? Although some may think those are true about themselves, you can't just focus on the fact that you are companion-less and no one wants to be in a long term committed relationship with you. Yes it may be hard, but have you ever considered that you may not have found the right person. That person you are so desperately seeking may not even turn up until you are 80 years old!


Be My Valentine!


Just because you don't have a Valentine, doesn't mean you are any less important than anyone else. It doesn't mean that you aren't beautiful, and it certainly doesn't mean you wouldn't be loved. It is better to focus on the things in life which don't completely suck, like having the few close friends who even in spite of all your flaws love you unconditionally. The friends who would do almost anything to make sure you are okay - those friends are worth more than any stupid box of chocolates. Those delicious chocolates that you are missing out on are only going to make their recipient fat... and if they don't, screw them! And screw that damn box of chocolates! Hell, I have only got two boxes of chocolates in my life, and only one boyfriend has ever given me a bouquet of flowers, so screw flowers too!!!!!

There are only 1 1/2 weeks to go before the big day comes, and I know for a fact that I will not have a Valentine, obviously because I am such a hideous creature! In case you can't tell, that comment was dripping with sarcasm (to the right you will see a picture of me, judge for yourself). Since I will be alone, I have decided to have everyone be my Valentine. I won't be getting everyone flowers or chocolate, but that isn't really what Valentines day is about anyway. It's about some guy back in the day who was martyred for performing wedding ceremonys. Seriously, Valentines day is really about death!!!! Even though I won't be giving everyone flowers or chocolate, will you be my Valentine???

How to Deal With Haters

Hate is like an STD, it can pass on to unsuspecting people who do not deserve to be put through drama. To all you haters out there, I'm cool with your disliking me. Why? Because I probably dislike you even more than you don't like me! Over the last year I have been screwed over by multiple people I have trusted, even those who claimed that I was one of the "best" friends. Now, I could be all bitter and vengeful, but it's not worth it, you're not worth it. There are a few things which you can do to deal with those nasty haters:

1) Don't give a f#*k: If you give haters any type of reaction which shows that they have gotten under your skin, that will only fuel them. Even if it bugs the hell out of you, act like it doesn't.

2) Keep your friends close, and your enemies at bay... but make sure you keep an eye on them. You don't want any nasty surprises. Surround yourself by people you can actually trust. If someone shows any signs of being a lying [insert word], CUT THEM from your life!

3) Delete and Block! Possibly one of my favorite pastimes is deleting people on Facebook, but there is one thing which can make it that little bit sweeter - the block option! Delete and block those haters! Lets face it, they deserve it. If you are unsure of how to block people on Facebook, click here. Blocking allows you to be absolutely invisible to the haters and vice versa, particularly wonderful if you have mutual friends.

4) Stay Classy San Diego. It doesn't actually matter if you are in San Diego or not, make sure you don't stoop to their level. There is no reason for you to act like a classless bastard. If they are spreading lies and blackening your name, who cares? If people are honestly going to believe the lies, they aren't your real friends.

5) Live your life. The best revenge is happiness, so live life like there is no tomorrow. Stop trying to please people and start living for you. Of course this doesn't mean ignoring other people and thinking you are God's gift to mankind. Quite simply, it means don't do things that make you unhappy to make others happy. I have been guilty of doing this a few times, but after this year I just don't care anymore. If my happiness offends you, feel free to walk out of my life for good.

There is almost no way around it, at some point in your life, whether you realize it or not, you are going to encounter haters. This doesn't mean that they have the right to bring you down. Don't forget, haters usually hate people for three reasons:

1. They are jealous of you / want to be you 
2. They hate themselves. 
3. They are threatened by you

Dear Computer,

We have been together for just over a year now. You have helped me through various semesters of school, including one which for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to take three honors classes at one time - SOOOOO fun!

You really do mean a lot to me, but your behavior lately has been unacceptable! Even though you are a fat whore (old refurbished computer), I have stood by you when others would have just gone to BestBuy and brought a newer, sexier computer. I have been nothing but loyal, you decide it's a good idea to skip videos and take forever to load things. I am going to try and get you help, as soon as I can, but please, when you see my computer nerd friend, please cooperate! He is only trying to help you so I don't end up throwing you off the balcony.

Hopefully my request has not fallen on deaf circuits. I would greatly appreciate your cooperation. Please computer... stop with these shenanigans! Listen, I am alone without a computer at a crossroads, please computer... listen!

Yours Sincerely,

Hannah