Just One of Those Days

Today was one of those days... the ones that you just step back and say "wow, this is what my life is right now," and I don't necessarily mean that in a good way. Moving half way across the world doesn't always seem like a good decision. I've missed so much and have less to show for it than I have lost. Everyone has changed, and some of the people closest to me now seem like strangers. The more I think about it, the more it bothers me... and there is nothing I can really do about it. I made the decision to move across the world, and it's not like I can take anything back (last I checked time travel has not been invented yet).

I can honestly say that I have absolutely no idea where I am going to be in 6 months, nor do I know what I'll be doing. Sure this may be concerning to many people, but it is particularly annoying to me because I don't like not knowing what is going to happen. I like to be in control of my life, but clearly I'm not. The older I get, the more I understand the phrase "just go with it." As much as it bugs me, it's my only option. So yeah... I'm just going to see where life leads me.